i did this plate of spaghetti myself(:
-i tidied my shelf after it had been messy for so long
-im having a slight headache now
-im trying to find something meaningful to do right now
-i overspent this week
-i got back all my EOY results except Amaths and eng compo (the teachers can be really efficient sometimes!)
-i did badly for my geog this time T.T
-i scored below average for my Emaths paper 2 ):
-im of good mood this week
-i think im going to be very busy again very quickly
Keep in the sunlight.
my mood is of sort of better today suddenly after so long :D
not exactly because the exams are over.. unknown reasons
but whatever, let's pray hard i'll maintain like that(:
yes, i finally successfully lived through the tiring EOY period(:
i realised that science papers really tire me out.
oh well, i seriously dont expect great results.
and im trying super hard not to let this affect my post-exam mood, at least for these two days.
went for a lunch celebration at pepper lunch
gossip and laughed a lot, certainly efficient in relieving stress(:
accompanying my mum to hospital for physio tmr.
she's just lazy to go if im not there.
actually i dont like going orchard..
(i want to go for movies dates and shopping, i want to relieve all the stress that has built up in me for the past 10 months.)
NO.
i cannot give up.
not me, not now.
GONE.
-might be back-
im depressed.
you know what,
i felt that im on an unbalanced see-saw.
it's forever moving, never stable.
sometimes, it'll bring me somewhere high, where happiness and carefree are.
whereas other times, it brings me to a place deep down, where fear and stress exist.
i want it to stop, but i knew i cant forced it.
i cant follow the pace and the flow, and now im struggling.
struggling to keep myself onto the see-saw..
when i dont see the point to do it.
but i knew i just have to.Labels: LOST
i know the problem is still there.
im just controlling myself from expressing it.
well, at least i dont make people worry(:
probably will not be posting for a long time.
because of busy + no mood.
bye.
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